In the summer of 1990 I gave my heart to Jesus Christ, and for two years was avidly adoring Him, reading and following the Bible's counsel, and praying to GOD. But then it happened! What I thought I would never do again I did: I indulged in sin against GOD'S Ten Commandment Law and was habitually carrying it out in my life. I continued my attendance at church, my fellowship with friends, my Bible studies, even my prayers. The Spirit of GOD brought the appropriate verses to my mind to get me to turn from the course of life that I had welded to my soul. I ignored them and continued on. But the Creator we serve wasn’t going to sit idly by and watch me die the eternal death! He personally came to me to warn me of my sinful course that was threatening our companionship together.

     Going to my computer one day, as I did every day, I brought up a document I was working on, and at the top of the page was typed a word: a large, all capital letter word: "ACEPHALOUS." I didn’t type this word. No one else was there to type it. I had never seen this word in any book or vocabulary before and didn’t even know what it meant. So I looked it up in the dictionary. It’s definition is, “headless;” ”having no head;” “lacking a governing head.” I knew that the Bible teaches that Christ is “head of the church,” and “head of the body, the church” (Eph.5:23; Col.1:18). So ACEPHALOUS declared that I was Christless! I was lost! The Holy Spirit had no part in my soul during this time! No power dwelled within to raise my mortal soul to everlasting life! In my indulgence in sin I stood as Samson when his continued ignoring of his own sin brought him to a place of great danger: “And she said, The Philistines be upon thee, Samson. And he awoke out of his sleep, and said, I will go out as at other times before, and shake myself. And he wist not that the LORD was departed from him.” Jud.16:20.

     But the GOD of Heaven, His Holy Spirit, and my Guardian Angel did not abandon me. Oh no! I was led to the words of Jesus “As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten.” Rev.3:19. So I knew I was still loved and not forsaken. GOD’S personal warning to me was a demonstration to show the true character of GOD in the midst of my sin. The quality of the voice leading in my heart was compassionate, solemn and plaintive: not harsh and condemning. It was the same love that when Peter denied Jesus the third time with cussing, the Bible says, “And the Lord turned, and looked upon Peter.” Lu.22:61. Peter looked into the eyes of his Master. The look in His eyes, the expression of His face, the posture of His stance, was only of pure love, compassion and hope, without a hint of anger, disgust, or abandonment. “And Peter went out, and wept bitterly.” (v.62). And so did I.

     The LORD then led me to the passage of His promise of deliverance whose words were carried by His Holy Spirit into the marrow of my bones: “For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee. In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer. For this is as the waters of Noah unto me: for as I have sworn that the waters of Noah should no more go over the earth; so have I sworn that I would not be wroth with thee, nor rebuke thee. For the mountains shall depart, and the hills be removed; but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed, saith the LORD that hath mercy on thee.” Isa.54:7-10.

     From that moment forward I knew I was forgiven; and I repented a deep repentance; and thus, fulfilled the words: “the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance.” Rom.2:4. The Word of GOD set me free. Every corner I’ve ever been backed into; every situation I’ve ever faced, the Word of GOD has always set me free. “If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.” Jn.8:36.